| I can't take the heartbreak of you leaving me again.
So... there have been times when I've been better than I am right now. I got myself into some serious trouble, which is really only my own fault for having poor judgement, but it still sucks. And then there's always heartbreak. Fuck it. It's hard when you're friends on top of the other stuff... Jared told me once that that always ends in someone getting hurt, and I guess he was right. Ah well. At least I know I've still got a friend.
Went to three shows this weekend. Whew. Friday night was Kimmy Gibler, Hoods Up, Settle the Score, The Reformation, A Love For Enemies (two Christian bands, BLAH) and Verse. Pretty sweet time. Elaina and I amused each other all night by talking some serious shit... it's how we do, deal with it bitch. Bombers afterwards, where I got some grape juice and shared a delicious vegan pumpkin chocolate chip cookie with John Torn.
Saturday... sad in the morning. I didn't think I was going to be able to go anywhere, but around 8:30 Mike dropped me an IM and asked me if I still wanted to go see Madeline Ferguson and Outta Hand in New Paltz... of course I did, so I hauled ass to get ready. We made it out of Albany by 10, New Paltz by 11:15. The door guy at Cabbalussa's (the bar the show was at) tried not letting me in because I'm only 16, but I explained to him that I drove almost an hour and a half to get there and I was NOT standing outside. So I got in. Outta Hand was playing when we got in there, they were the first band. Good set from them. Madeline Ferguson was next and they were awesome as always. Afterwards there was a hilarious encounter with a drunk guy outside, Sawyer got it all on tape. I can't wait to see it. The singer of the next band, The Exelar, has my heart. Light skinned black boys with dreadlocks... mmhm. Sulaco was after that and we left during their set... I made it home by 3:15. Woo! Anyway it was really nice to see Ace and everything... I want to go to New Paltz during the day sometime, it looks like a nice little town to hang out in.
Yesterday was That's Life, Outta Hand, Rockets and Bluelights and Once and For All in Valatie. John Torn and I got a little lost but we finally found the place, and walked in as That's Life was starting to play. The venue was pretty cool, you could smoke in there and Elaina and I got Shirley Temples from the bar. Outta Hand was good. I talked to someone and worked some stuff out, cleared the bullshit out of the air. Rumors and heresay suck. Anyway, it feels better now. I watched part of R&BL's set, then went and sat at the bar and watched people play pool. Had a small talk with someone else, that one didn't make me feel a lot better but whatever. Danial bought me a Shirley Temple because I didn't have any money, aww. He was definitely enjoying his free drinks. OAFA played an awesome set, I got my toes stomped on a lot but that's ok. Afterwards everyone just hung out for a little while... Elaina told someone off and it was pretty awesome. We got out of there around 10, and John Torn and I headed to Bombers. We had a heart-to-heart on the way, it was nice in its own depressing way. LOVE STINKS, yeah yeah. Got a barbecue tofu quesadilla, it was pretty awesome even though I only ate 1/4 of it.
I can't wait to go to the Boston Aquarium with Elaina, Phil, Greg and (maybe) Danielle. Greg's real excited about it, he keeps talking about it and then catching himself and saying he needs to stop talking about it. It's going to rule though.
As far as other things go... I just want to make cookies with my mom, watch movies and sleep. I have no motivation and I'm pretty sad. Cool huh? |
